Without any heartbreak

Satnight is not about hangout, flirting, kissing or something like that. satnight about u can spend  ur time for any important things u can do.  frankly speaking this year is my senior year in high school, I wanna give my best although I can't be a doctor or something my parents want but 'be my self' or 'follow your passion' I won't lie to myself that like someone, that means that I break one of my rules this year. but this feelings make me confused, sometimes I just wanna hide from everybody, and everything. shit happens. God please make me focus, I just wanna finish this senior year without any heartbreak.